The year 1973; the 4th of June, I had turned 6 years old 9 days earlier. On this day I had stopped my dad from killing my mom. The divorce was to follow. On the 6th of June I was sexually abused for the first time, and before the end of June would be by 2 different people, yet by the end of 1973 it would be 4. Before the sexual abuse ended, when I was old enough to fight back, I could write down the names of 79 different abusers. It was in 1974 that physical abuse also started.
It was also in June of 1973 that I saw my first episode of Star Trek, it proved to save my life. My mother and abusers, allowed me to watch it, to them it pacified me, however for me it was an escape to a safe world. As I grew my Star Trek world merged with the real world. I had altered the history of Star Trek so that it was my history, my past, I did not want my real past. From the outside friends and family viewed me as a Trekker or Trekkie, but I was not a fan, Star Trek WAS my reality, even years after I was married. My wife knew my past and understood the role Star Trek played, it kept me alive, it kept me from my reality.
In 1976 I moved to live with my dad just south of Houston Texas, my life was to get worse. Doc (my dad) was involved with some very dark people, and I was a blond haired, green eyed 9 year old boy. I was soon being introduced to some very powerful men in and around the Houston area. I learned very quickly not to fight, it would hurt worse. But I did have an advantage over some other boys caught up in this darkness, I was in demand, so the goods were protected.
My life changed many times after 1976, I moved to several states, my dad or step-dad, depending who I was living with, seemed to always be running from the law.
Once I was old enough I left that world, that life, married, fathered children and still lived Star Trek…Then Leonard Nimoy died.
I bought everything printed in haste about his life and started to read, one night, one book changed my life. I had bought a book/mag about his personal life and sat up most of the night reading it, on the last few pages were goodbyes written by friends, it was the very last goodbye that changed me. I read it, then saw his name, the name of a man who sexually abused me when I lived in Houston in 1976. Tears rolled from my eyes, anger boiled in my gut, hate and rage filled every part of me. This man as it turned out was a consultant for Star Trek during the TOS days.
The reality hit me hard, Star Trek was my escape from the abuse, yet one of my abusers was helping to tell the stories, to say I was physically sick would be an understatement. I throw the book away and got rid of everything Star Trek.
I can’t watch it anymore, it is repulsive, I have no interest. But it is now 50 years later and Star Trek is all the news. It is to me a reminder of all that is truly evil and wrong in this world.
I wrote my life story, all 800+ pages and after a former police officer (who also worked with the NSA and Scotland Yard) and another professional read it they both agreed it had to be toned down and altered. The professional Googled the names and was shocked to learn all I said was fact, there are records of many of the accounts. After heavy editing, a trim to about 400 pages and facts altered the book “David’s mark” was published.
In the book I do not name the name of the Star Trek Consultant, but in 3 places I give some excellent clues. The three places are marked, but a fast reader will pass over them. I will never tell who it was, but as Star Trek turns 50, remember the episode “Mirror Mirror”, it has a dark evil side.
The book "David's mark"
It was also in June of 1973 that I saw my first episode of Star Trek, it proved to save my life. My mother and abusers, allowed me to watch it, to them it pacified me, however for me it was an escape to a safe world. As I grew my Star Trek world merged with the real world. I had altered the history of Star Trek so that it was my history, my past, I did not want my real past. From the outside friends and family viewed me as a Trekker or Trekkie, but I was not a fan, Star Trek WAS my reality, even years after I was married. My wife knew my past and understood the role Star Trek played, it kept me alive, it kept me from my reality.
In 1976 I moved to live with my dad just south of Houston Texas, my life was to get worse. Doc (my dad) was involved with some very dark people, and I was a blond haired, green eyed 9 year old boy. I was soon being introduced to some very powerful men in and around the Houston area. I learned very quickly not to fight, it would hurt worse. But I did have an advantage over some other boys caught up in this darkness, I was in demand, so the goods were protected.
My life changed many times after 1976, I moved to several states, my dad or step-dad, depending who I was living with, seemed to always be running from the law.
Once I was old enough I left that world, that life, married, fathered children and still lived Star Trek…Then Leonard Nimoy died.
I bought everything printed in haste about his life and started to read, one night, one book changed my life. I had bought a book/mag about his personal life and sat up most of the night reading it, on the last few pages were goodbyes written by friends, it was the very last goodbye that changed me. I read it, then saw his name, the name of a man who sexually abused me when I lived in Houston in 1976. Tears rolled from my eyes, anger boiled in my gut, hate and rage filled every part of me. This man as it turned out was a consultant for Star Trek during the TOS days.
The reality hit me hard, Star Trek was my escape from the abuse, yet one of my abusers was helping to tell the stories, to say I was physically sick would be an understatement. I throw the book away and got rid of everything Star Trek.
I can’t watch it anymore, it is repulsive, I have no interest. But it is now 50 years later and Star Trek is all the news. It is to me a reminder of all that is truly evil and wrong in this world.
I wrote my life story, all 800+ pages and after a former police officer (who also worked with the NSA and Scotland Yard) and another professional read it they both agreed it had to be toned down and altered. The professional Googled the names and was shocked to learn all I said was fact, there are records of many of the accounts. After heavy editing, a trim to about 400 pages and facts altered the book “David’s mark” was published.
In the book I do not name the name of the Star Trek Consultant, but in 3 places I give some excellent clues. The three places are marked, but a fast reader will pass over them. I will never tell who it was, but as Star Trek turns 50, remember the episode “Mirror Mirror”, it has a dark evil side.
The book "David's mark"
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