One of my past #abusers in #Houston is very well known.
Recently it was suggested to me that I out him. It was suggested that in light of Steven #Collins, Bill #Cosby and others that I should, after all it will give others the courage to come forward.
There in is an issue.
When the lawyer that obtained the court order to publish the Boy #Scouts #pedophile list won and then published that list I was upset. At first I thought the names of the abused boys would be on that list, I thought my name would be on it since I was a Cub Scout and then a Boy Scout and sexually abused as both. I downloaded the list and noticed no names of #abused #boys were on the list so I was relieved. My point, I don't want to expose my abusers for many reasons, none of which are to protect them. I will explain.
1) Many of my abusers are dead and dust. Exposing them will accomplish nothing, but it will hang an Albatross about the necks of their #children and grandchildren. Why should the next generation pay for the sins of the father?
2) I am not interested in a settlement of money, I would have to sue the Boy Scouts, the Catholic Church and one other large corporation, (I am not going to name). Doing that would take too much time of my life and I would have to listen to defense #lawyers call me a lier. I don't desire that.
3) The damage is done. Will exposing my past abusers fix me? Make me like I was before the first case of abuse at age 6? No. Nothing in this time will give me back what was stolen. I have also managed to confront some of my abusers, the reaction I got was far from expected. The most common reaction was "you asked for it" they would then add their preverted reasoning. So why endure that?
Some have suggested that me exposing so-and-so in Houston will give others the courage to come forward.
Let me say this, the first one through the wall is bloody and broken, the rest just walk through. I know many will object to this but the fact is only the first person to come forward has courage, it takes little courage to walk behind someone taking all the fire. History does not recall the second line in battle, only those that were first and broke the ranks of the enemy. My point, if I were to expose the man in Houston there might be others who would then step up on my body and come forward, but they did not do it of their own courage. I mean no disrespect but in the end courage comes from within not from someone else.
Recently it was suggested to me that I out him. It was suggested that in light of Steven #Collins, Bill #Cosby and others that I should, after all it will give others the courage to come forward.
There in is an issue.
When the lawyer that obtained the court order to publish the Boy #Scouts #pedophile list won and then published that list I was upset. At first I thought the names of the abused boys would be on that list, I thought my name would be on it since I was a Cub Scout and then a Boy Scout and sexually abused as both. I downloaded the list and noticed no names of #abused #boys were on the list so I was relieved. My point, I don't want to expose my abusers for many reasons, none of which are to protect them. I will explain.
1) Many of my abusers are dead and dust. Exposing them will accomplish nothing, but it will hang an Albatross about the necks of their #children and grandchildren. Why should the next generation pay for the sins of the father?
2) I am not interested in a settlement of money, I would have to sue the Boy Scouts, the Catholic Church and one other large corporation, (I am not going to name). Doing that would take too much time of my life and I would have to listen to defense #lawyers call me a lier. I don't desire that.
3) The damage is done. Will exposing my past abusers fix me? Make me like I was before the first case of abuse at age 6? No. Nothing in this time will give me back what was stolen. I have also managed to confront some of my abusers, the reaction I got was far from expected. The most common reaction was "you asked for it" they would then add their preverted reasoning. So why endure that?
Some have suggested that me exposing so-and-so in Houston will give others the courage to come forward.
Let me say this, the first one through the wall is bloody and broken, the rest just walk through. I know many will object to this but the fact is only the first person to come forward has courage, it takes little courage to walk behind someone taking all the fire. History does not recall the second line in battle, only those that were first and broke the ranks of the enemy. My point, if I were to expose the man in Houston there might be others who would then step up on my body and come forward, but they did not do it of their own courage. I mean no disrespect but in the end courage comes from within not from someone else.
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