On March 3rd 2021 I got my first #Covid19 vaccine shot. In the beginning when the mRNA vaccine was developed I was very concerned because it was encoded in synthetic RNA. But then my aunt and uncle got Covid. My aunt suffered lifelong nerve damage, my uncle...he lingered for weeks and weeks in severe pain, then died alone, in a cold hospital. I was getting text updates nearly everyday and it altered my thinking and view. At one point he woke up and had no memories, then fell into a coma and lingered.
Everyday after that I would have the thought cross my mind, "is today my day to get the Covid and die like my uncle?" I would watch my wife of over 33 years and dread dying alone, apart from her. I also thought about the pain I would encounter and how it would in a very real way eat my lungs. To tell you the truth I was fearful of Covid and getting it. Everyday I woke up I also thought "just get it and get it over with. If it kills you it kills you." I am not afraid of death, I am fearful of the intensity of the pain, but more so of dying alone and without my wife. I told her this morning I do not know if I could draw a breath if you died before me and I hope if we do ever die we die together. So my personal views of the vaccine changed.
When the Johnson & Johnson vaccine hit the market I knew I had to get the existing vaccine, I in no way wanted the J&J. All vaccines must have a carrier, the current Covid vaccines use an mRNA as the carrier, the J&J uses DNA and that DNA comes from stem cells of aborted fetuses. I do not in any way support abortion and for me accepting the J&J vaccine would be supporting the source and means it was developed and delivered.
Then in Tennessee group 1c became eligible to sign up. I'm 1c. Of course it was not to start until Monday the 8th but my area had the supply so they started early. I got my 1st shot. I had no ill effects whatsoever.
After the attendants left my car I sat there and realized what had just happened. I felt "free" in a manner of speaking. I felt as if a darkness had lifted off of me. I did not feel downhearted, defeated, and I thought of my uncle, just a few weeks later and he would have had his had one person worn their mask. As the day progressed I felt happier, and then something hit me, something I had not been aware of, I did not feel the same stress levels. My stress level had just plummeted. Then this morning, I woke up happy, I simply could not believe how much pressure had been removed from a simple shot. My entire mindset had been altered. So in a way I suppose the mRNA vaccine does alter you. It restores a feeling of wellbeing, hope that you can survive Covid and lowers stress.